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Word is Pressing Me

  • Posted on January 31, 2008

I don’t know what happened today with WordPress, but it has behaved very badly! It hasn’t let me stay logged in. Now it finally does, but I have no clue as to why now finally?!

When it rains, it pours! Time Warner’s Road Runner Internet service has caused me to lose my patience too! I tenaciously stuck through eleven hours of being on hold (off and on; most of the time getting disconnected); trying countless things over and over again in order to upload just one file to their website hosting service (that’s included with their internet service). For what? By the time I came up with the solution, I changed my mind about depending on them for anything more than I have to!

What will tomorrow bring? Another reminder of why I pine for the era when life used to be simple? Those were the days when people actually gave a crap and were honest.

This Sunday really better be a day of rest because I’m only sleeping an hour or two per night lately! (I can’t sleep when my curiosity gets insatiable.) Do I sound a tad bit cranky? Cranky winds up Goofy and Goofy wakes up Corny.

Helen

  • Posted on January 30, 2008

See . . . I told you that people would start recognize your fantastic artwork! I’m proud of you! You’re one of the best artists left in this world! Your life is about to change big time and I’m excited!

You’ll see what I mean when you read the first comment about your displayed art on this blog!

Working or Playing?

  • Posted on January 30, 2008

People who judge faster than they think are not going to be able to see how the way I use my blog makes my life more productive and efficient. My blog is neither work nor play. For me, it is a tool. Just like there is an endless variety of tools, so too the kind of blogs people create.

Learning as much as I can to make a blog serve my purpose in an ideal manner was work. Work is activity directed toward making or doing something. I had a goal to achieve. If I didn’t have a goal with a valid reason (of which I’m the only one qualified to judge between what’s a valid reason versus an excuse) for what I do and how I do it, then that would be different.

To judge someone’s way of being without having lived that person’s life, makes one a fool. For fools who think this blog was created for play and by playing, allow me to fine-tune your misguided thoughts. Recreation would be what comes to your minds. Recreation is an activity that refreshes and recreates; an activity that renews your health and spirits by enjoyment and relaxation; something that diverts or amuses or stimulates.

Consider this for an example: People go to school to learn how to use what’s out there in the world for the purpose of finding some activity that will enrich their lives. Is this educational process play? Can the end result provide some benefits that enable recreational activity periodically?

Granted, I know most people have trouble to understand how a blog like mine improves its author’s life. Their first thought is, “What a waste of time, and for what?” Then the next thing which comes to their mind is, “Why not keep things simple, especially when life is complicated enough today?” Almost always the same question comes back to me, “Why don’t you just use e-mail like everybody else?!?”

How long will it take for people to learn I’m not like everybody else?!? I can’t even explain myself in such a way that others are able to understand. It’s like a tomato in a garden trying to explain something to a lobster in the ocean, except that I look like a human being as much as anyone else does. Maybe if I physically looked as different from the human race as my neurological operating system of my brain is, then I wouldn’t be faced with so many irritating situations?

That being said, I must clarify I’m as human as anyone else when it comes to the nature God gave us all. I can empathize like others do, but probably in a different way that ends up causing people to misjudge me. In some ways and situations, with certain people, there may not even be any noticeable difference between how I am compared to others.

So, what’s the bottom line? My blog tool is like a mental chiropractor for me. It keeps me adjusted and in good health while living in the type of world we’ve got. How in God’s creation can a highly-complex thinker function in an environment that prefers to keep things simple? They learn to create bridges such as this blog is for me.

Wrapped Tightly

  • Posted on January 29, 2008

I hit the jackpot of happiness one year ago from last night! On Sunday, January 28th at 9:52:35 PM (EST), I learned I’m an Aspie!

Why would that make me happier than winning the lottery? Because the last missing pieces to the puzzle of my life were found! Having those pieces gave me the full picture so now I can see things the way they really are!

I have so many benefits now (no, I don’t mean financial ones!), but this isn’t the category for me to be describing them in. Someday maybe I’ll mention some of them in my Aspieness posts.

I got peace and joy after becoming saved by the grace of God. That was the main course. This ever-increasing pleasure of getting better acquainted with, and enjoying, who I am is the indescribably delicious desert!

I used to always be sad throughout my life because of not understanding the whats and whys behind everyone else getting more out of living. Most others still live the same way as they always have, but not me! I went from the bottom pits of darkness to the sunny mountain top!

Now I’ll just have to keep reminding myself to not think of myself like how people used to have me thinking, but that part is going to be a piece of cake to change!

Thank you God!

When Do I Leave My Church?

  • Posted on January 29, 2008

The Greek meaning of the word “abomination” is here given from Strong’s Concordance:

[[ SGreek - 946. bdelugma ]]
{bdelugma} bdelugma bdel’-oog-mah
from 948; a detestation, i.e. (specially) idolatry:–abomination.

From Webster’s 1828 Dictionary:

IDOL’ATRY, n. L. idololatria. Gr. idol, and to worship or serve.
The worship of images, statues, pictures, idols, or any thing made by hands, or which is not God.

“Made by hands” is another way of pointing out what is made by man versus what is God. Images, etc. are not to include just the physical creations of man, but also the vain imaginations coming from an evil heart.

Idolatry is the worshiping (serving) of any thing that is not God who created all things out of no thing. Vain imagination is the attempt to create any thing out of no thing, which in a sense is basically playing the role of God. The antonym for imagination is: reality; actuality; being; existence; substance; true; factual; definite; genuine. This is why an evil heart can only produce imaginations that are vain. Only a sanctified heart can attach its affections to truth. God’s Word is truth. His Word is reality. God created all things into existence by His spoken word. For example:

Genesis 1:3, “And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.This is why Jesus confronted Satan with, “It is written.”
Jeremiah 7:23-24, “But this thing commanded I them, saying, Obey my voice, and I will be your God, and ye shall be my people: and walk ye in all the ways that I have commanded you, that it may be well unto you. But they hearkened not, nor inclined their ear, but walked in the counsels and in the imagination of their evil heart, and went backward, and not forward.”

Where is it written that rejecting the authority of the bible is the abomination of desolation? Where is it written that there is a rapture? It’s not, but that doesn’t imply there isn’t one. Neither does it mean that rejecting the authority of the bible is NOT the abomination of desolation. When you reject the authority of the bible, you also are rejecting the author and calling God a liar.

When one rejects the authority of the bible, that is the abomination of desolation. It is idolatry. It is the vain imagination coming from an evil heart. For someone to claim it’s not, their explanation is going to be a vain imagination.

Imagination is conceit and vanity. Imaginary is conceived. What is conceit? It’s the same as being vain. It’s a favorable and especially unduly high opinion of one’s own abilities or worth. How does one end up conceited? Pride. What’s the opposite of pride? Humility. When someone walks in the counsels and in the imagination of their evil heart rather than in what God has expressed in His written word that He commands, he and/or she is a reprobate (reject). This does not exclude a whole congregation of Pharisees that are an abomination desolate (rendered unfit for habitation or use) to God.

Bentley and His Master

  • Posted on January 28, 2008

Bentley and my daughter . . .

Biscuit Boy

Bonnie Lass

Bentley loves his biscuits, but he’s a bit stunned over this volume!

Didn’t dance, but . . .

  • Posted on January 28, 2008

Yesterday afternoon, I did get a rare opportunity to meet another a fellow Aspie new to me. We sat side-by-side at a crowded bar, while waiting for a table to dine on. I enjoyed a pleasant chat with him. After he left, I was stunned to hear the comment someone else blurted out to me about him. This blurter didn’t even converse with Mr. Aspie guy, but yet he felt free to make a rude remark.

The blurter said, “That guy isn’t too tightly wrapped.” I decided to not even respond to the jerk’s statement. However, I couldn’t help but think to myself, “It’s appropriate that Mr. Aspie guy isn’t too tightly wrapped. He isn’t the one who belongs in a straitjacket.”

Feline Urinary Tract Infections

  • Posted on January 28, 2008

I’ve had pets all throughout my life. As of 2008, I now have two cats and two dogs. In order to possibly spare others from needless suffering when dealing with urinary tract infections, please permit me to share my experiences (there are two; one in 2006 and the other in 2007):

On Saturday, July 29th 2006 in the early afternoon, my male Ragdoll cat “Oliver” began showing symptoms of a urinary illness. Naturally this had to begin as the nearby veterinary offices were closing for the weekend. Upon taking the advice of my regular vet’s answering service to call an animal emergency clinic, Oliver was promptly brought in to be checked for a possible blockage.

The vet on call could not find anything wrong with him. He did admit that Oliver’s behavior could be early signs of trouble, so he prescribed Cefa-Drops (Cefadroxil). From that Saturday to the next, the medicine was administered faithfully; using up every last drop. The Sunday after beginning his “medicine,” he continued to show the same signs of urinary tract infection up until Wednesday. From Wednesday to Saturday morning the symptoms gradually disappeared. The Saturday afternoon of August 5th however became an instant replay of last Saturday’s symptoms of suffering. I knew by close observation his urinary tract was not becoming blocked so I refrained from involuntarily donating another $130 to the emergency clinic. Sunday I prayed in earnest for God’s guidance.

I seriously reconsidered Colloidal Silver as the remedy. Sunday morning, after having tried antibiotics for one week, Oliver got his first dose of Colloidal Silver. Three per day seemed to be appropriate. Monday showed no signs of improvement, but I wouldn’t panic since he was no worse either. Tuesday seemed to be another day for testing faith. On Wednesday, he seemed to be more at ease! Also that morning I awoke with the suspicion of cat litter as being the cause of this infection. After quickly coming across this article warning on the dangers of clay based clumping cat litter, I was convinced where the source of Oliver’s trouble was coming from. I threw out every trace of that cursed litter and its box after having immediately purchased World’s Best Cat Litter (corn based) from my nearest supplier (along with a brand new litter box).

Thursday—the day after this litter change over—Oliver was feeling better than I’d ever seen him be before! Even though he seemed to be over his UTI, I still kept giving him Colloidal Silver three times a day on up until Monday, August 14th. Statistics show that Colloidal Silver carries no risk from slight overdose that a few weeks could cause.

The Cefa-Drops did begin to suppress the toxoplasmosis that is caused by the protozoan parasite Toxoplasma gondii. However, Cefa-Drops progress to conquer the infection was ultimately defeated by this obligate intracellular protozoan. That only demonstrated to me exactly what is meant by pharmaceutical antibiotics weakening the immune system. This would result in a veterinarian being compelled to either increase the strength of the next prescription or turn to another type of anti-biotic. Either way the result decreases the long-term health of the cat at the cost of getting rid of the symptoms. In fact, I’ve even read that antibiotics do not work against toxoplasmosis. Reading Testimonial 6’s healing report on UTI and Colloidal Silver further convinces me of this.

Colloidal Silver eliminates the symptoms of UTI too, but it does not diminish the immune system. If you want to read How It Works, go down to the forth section.

It’s also obvious that the truth was said on the dangers of using clay based clumping cat litter. Corn based litter is not inexpensive, but when comparing it against the cost of ill-health that cheap litter brings, it’s worth every penny! Plus, corn litter makes a room smell sweet and clean. It also is easier to maintain since there is less mess.

Now jumping ahead to the year 2007:

This was during the time when some commercially canned cat and dog food brands were making animals sick and dying. Oliver was my only pet who unfortunately consumed some of this toxic food. I was trying to find some brand of canned cat food he would eat, but since he is so particular about his food, he ended up sampling many different brands.

I took Oliver to the vet. He was more sick this time than he was in 2006. I tried the same remedy, however on this occasion something was different. The vet insisted upon many expensive tests for Oliver, which I could not afford.

Back online I went; this time determined to dig deeper for information that would hopefully help me to understand what could be going on in his body. I remember being impressed by a herbal product called Stone Free. I set out to use this kidney and gallbladder medication immediately, along with using Colloidal Silver. I also gave him an herbal supplement that promotes bladder and urinary tract health in dogs and cats called UTI-Free. Within 24 hours, he passed a substantial amount of urine. After 48 hours, he was back to his playful self! I was so relieved and happy, but the vet wasn’t. She also wasn’t too happy over my not telling her what I gave Oliver for his recovery. Oh well, that’s life!

I’ve been able to enjoy watching my pets be healthy for about one year now. I’ve learned how important fluids and the proper pH level is for their health. My cats and dogs get feed only Felidae and Canidae foods (both dry and canned). Their products seem to be the best value, but now they’re having a tough time keeping up with the increased market demand for their brand since the pet food scare of 2007. You won’t find their foods in the grocery store. Only the feed stores sell them.

Now that I’ve said what I’ve said, human government, along with lawsuit addicts, demand I must include this statement in order to protect myself:

The material in this post is provided for educational and informational purposes only, and is not intended to be a substitute for consultation by a “legally permitted” health-care provider. Please consult your own “appropriately licensed” veterinarian about the applicability of any opinions or recommendations with respect to your own pets’ symptoms or medical conditions.

The most misunderstood syndrome!

  • Posted on January 26, 2008

Most people automatically think I’m making up an excuse for things when I tell them I have Asperger’s Syndrome. The first question asked is, “How do you know you’ve got that disease?” That right there tells me I’m up for a challenge. I feel like telling them, “You’re the one with the disease. It’s called arrogant ignorance.” Why would I think such an unfriendly response as that? Well, let me tell you . . .

For starters, just because the word “syndrome” is used does not imply illness. One meaning of syndrome is, “a complex of concurrent things.” For example, Every word has a syndrome of meanings. Does that example mean then every word is diseased? Is there a better word to describe Aspergers than by tacking on Syndrome after it? If I’m sick, then what is making me ill is having to explain myself to everyone my entire life because they don’t understand me but yet they have no problem with judging me wrongly!

If that’s not bad enough, too many people have spread around the term Asperger’s Syndrome Disorder! That’s the equivalent of saying someone has Black-skinned Syndrome Disorder or Jewish Syndrome Disorder! Since when does anyone have the right to define what is in order versus disorder?!?! The only disorder there really is, is sin!

Then the next irritation is comes from the how do I know part! 1954, the year I was born, isn’t quite what you’d call yesterday. Why can’t people give me some credit to know myself by now? That’s a lot of years experience living life differently than typical people do. I won’t get into explaining the details of how so right here (too many; maybe it takes me writing a book?).

The socially correct reaction (and mind you, Aspies are labeled as being socially incorrect beings) that a neurotypical person should have when someone is thoughtful enough to educate her (or him) is to respond by saying, “I would like to become better acquainted with you, so please explain to me what the traits are in this syndrome of Aspergers and why they are there.” Doesn’t that sound polite? Then why is it that I almost never hear that?!?!

By the Grace of God Go I

  • Posted on January 26, 2008

My Father let me know when it was time for bed. Once laid down for rest from a wearisome day, He spoke to me from His book of truth until I floated into a peaceful sleep. Because He always is faithful, these words could be said before too late. So, cast not your eyes downward but look above. Treasure is wherever your heart is and no one can steal what’s locked behind heaven’s gate.

To be confident that you’re never going to sin again in a certain area is to rob God of His glory, because your faith is in your self then instead of in God. God can remove His grace at any time and He will as soon as He thinks its time someone is getting too proud and independent. It’s an excellent method He uses to humble His elect whenever they are due for for some “correction” during the training period here on earth.

God is supernatural. Only He can create a thing out of no thing. He spoke and it was as good as done. He wrote and His word is never ending. He placed His spirit in His elect so they too will do supernatural works such as returning good for evil. What is spiritual shows its symptoms in the physical world. Agape love is complete unselfish love and looks for nothing in return. All other love is natural and subject to human nature, therefore this love ceases when the returns no longer gratify self. A supernatural heart is what needs to beat in order to exemplify a supernatural health. Staying in harmony with God’s will by design causes healing to be ongoing. Being out of God’s will guarantees disease(s) of some sort. Cavities even can heal if diet (physical, mental, and spiritual) lines by up with God’s plan. [Dentist Dr. Weston Price documents cases of this happening.] Nothing is impossible for God. He uses everything to serve His purpose. Humility versus pride is what the battle is all about with human nature.

Then what about all the “new agers” and their pride held over how much better they eat and live than others? Is it true though that they are healthier? They might be physically healthier at a later point in their life (which doesn’t necessarily mean they are free of disease), but never do their minds grow to be more sound. Being out of God’s will is insanity and shows just like a thorn bush grows thorns.

This is why whatever man does in his natural state is ironic. Go to the doctor (&/or hospital) to get sick; take medication for worse health; visit a psychiatrist to nurture insanity; take laxatives to become more constipated; take sleeping pills to stay awake; go to lawyers to be treated more unfairly; go to school to get more stupid; etc.

God gives you all these insights and talents to share them; but, if these insights are self-righteously used, they will only end up proving to readers all the more it’s to God only goes the glory. Depend on self and no good thing will become of it. Depend on God and no thing will be impossible. In the the ironies revealed, can it come to pass that the one who gets the most wisdom is actually he who acts foolish in the eyes of this world? It’s something to consider.

Here’s more to consider:

Anger, bitterness, envy, jealousy, etc. is inevitable when coddling self as the center of life. In order to forget self, God’s mercy has to be appreciated constantly. That’s why He says to give thanks continuously. As soon as you stop being thankful for His grace, self gets magnified. To the same degree sight is lost of God’s sovereignty, who He is (creator and sustainer of life), and how righteous and demanding of justice) He is (along with Him owing His righteousness and/or faith to no one) is the degree self-deception takes place and substitutes self in place of all God’s qualities. You can’t be humble without awareness of God’s grace/mercy and you can’t be proud with that awareness. One is oil and the other is water…they don’t mix.

Remember a spoiled child that trains his parents in the way to go ends up expecting the world to be his servant. Children trained by their parents are more adjusted to know that if they want something, they must seek after it themselves. Neither the spoiled child or the well trained child will depend on God if His grace and mercy isn’t imparted to her/him. Either will depend on God if her/his eyes and ears are opened to truth. Parents who spoil their children do it because they need more love than they have to give. Only parents who are not needy of their childrens’ love can give more love than they need. The best gift a man can give to his children is to love their mother. True love is agape love. The gift of love is given independent of how lovable the recipient is. However agape love is not possible by humans apart from God because human nature is selfish.

Faith is the insurance of things hoped for.

The difference of motives between self-righteous work fueled by the pride of needing to feel acceptable by being a “good” person versus God’s spirit working His self out in your life to bring glory and honor to Him only shows up in what order good deeds are done. When actions are derived from the inside out, then the horse is in front of the cart so to speak. When actions are derived from the outside in (as in the case of self-righteousness), then the cart is in front of the horse.

Using the example of baking a pie to give to someone who has been at odds with you for restoring the relationship, one decides s/he will be the “better” man by making the first move to do good. The idea alone already begins to bring a “feel-good” sense of being. It’s enhanced as one walks up the steps to ring the doorbell while carrying the work of art in hand. A smile can even enhance the experience as the door opens. If the recipient greets the pie-giver with appreciation, less likely will it be evident as to which motive drove the baking event. It’s easy to be good when goodness is shared. To love those who return your love is natural.

However if the recipient rejects the pie-giver’s “good” deed, then it becomes more evident which motive was behind this pie-full endeavor. To return good (love/warm affection) for evil (hate/neglect) is a supernatural work. True love is supernatural. Real love is not natural nor can it ever be since man is basically selfish.

If the pie-giver’s attitude after rejection is, “Well it’s obvious who is the good man here (me of course). The one who rejects my gracious offer is the loser. Now I can go home and feel even better about myself. Actually this confirms our friendship ended. If s/he was like me, she would have gladly accepted my gift offering of peace.”

Evidence of the motive being God’s spirit when a peace offering is rejected would be a humble attitude filled with fear and reverence for God. The pie-giver would be fully aware of “therefore but by the grace of God go I.” S/he would have already examined her/his heart to know if such a thing as a pie would be an insult to the recipient if the level of damage the relationship suffered went far deeper and longer than any pie could restore. A physical murder isn’t the only thing which can destroy the life out of someone’s heart. In fact, prolonged and subtle bad attitudes can do more damage to another being than even a quick and deep jab with a knife into the heart. A pie works for situations which consist of rare instances when a person behaves out of the norm for the relationship by doing something(s) foolish by temporarily thinking only of her/him self. A pie definitely doesn’t restore behavior that has been progressing gradually worse, especially when the malicious and selfish behavior doesn’t even begin to convict the baker’s conscience into breaking her/his heart of stone by having a contrite spirit. Unless a person has come to the point of seeing how subtly and continuously she/he has been hurting the one whom the pie is baked for, handing over a pie into wounded hands is no different than rubbing the pie into her/his hurting face. When someone has been hurt long enough, she/he might be able reach the point of knowing that she/he has never really been ever held in warm affection. That acceptance hurts less in the long run than to stay in denial and remain in the pattern of being hurt indefinitely by the other person’s toxic fruits of human nature (like jealousy, envy, bitterness, etc.).

Toxic pie is what’s baked to conceal guilt. A confession of foolish behavior can only contain good fruit and be a humble pie. Proud pies can never contain good fruit since it sprouts out of a bad seed. You can use a pie like a band-aid when a relationship has only suffered a scratch or minor cut. You can no more expect a band-aid to fix internal bleeding than a pie to fix a relationship that suffers critically and is in need of intensive care. How can anyone trust a person with a band-aid mentally towards cancerous behavior?

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