Even though it’s been a long time since I’ve been depressed, I can still remember this strange experience I had. It’s not the depression that was strange, but rather the ‘cure’. If I procrastinate any longer though to write about it, I might forget to.
There is nothing unusual about feeling down over knowing you can’t have what you’d like. That’s bad enough for most people, but on top of that, I felt worse over being in this condition because it was seeming like a private pity-party to me. I thought what I was going through was only because of not accepting something I could not change, at least without violating God’s will anyhow.
It’s true, I was not totally accepting my lot in life at that time, but that wasn’t the cause of my depressed state. It was the symptom. It wasn’t until I read something I never thought of before, that I learned the true cause of my sad condition. Just as soon as that new consideration arrived, the depression lifted away. That had to be the evidence uncovering what was actually going on, since that remedied the depression.
It was when I was studying and meditating upon how a person can know if he is saved, that I stumbled upon surprising information. I had been away from my regular routine of daily bible study for an unusual length of time and was beginning to get back into it. Before this unexpected revelation, I was slipping into doubt about my own salvation. I knew that God’s children thrive on pleasing Him and I knew that my attitude wasn’t matching that description then.
How more weird can self-deception be than to think that what you’re wanting isn’t what you really want? My escape from the pit of depression could not happen as long as I was doubting God. Because of forgetting that I thrive best when I’m pleasing Him (that’s easy to do when nourishing temptation by giving it too much attention), I became tricked into believing I was wanting something I didn’t really want. That tells me that if I did receive this desire which was actually an illusion (but probably would be a reality for a non-Christian), then I’d really be miserable!
If I had been examining myself better, I would have seen the pattern of when I am filled with joy. How could it happen that I forgot I am in my best emotional state whenever I’m doing¹ what God wants instead of what I want?
How can someone explain how pleasing God is more joyful than pleasing self unless he too has experienced it? That would be like trying to explain life to someone who hasn’t even been conceived yet.
One thing is for certain, you’ll never read about this kind of weird depression in any psychology books. This [remedy] is just another one of those unwelcome things to talk about in an aspie group meeting (and most other social gatherings too), but thank God I can tell about it here! 
¹I had not ‘done’ this thing I was keeping in my mind, but thinking about it was just as harmful as if I had acted on it.
