Yesterday, my husband and I went out to eat for our 20th anniversary of marriage. No, the chief wasn’t burning anything in the kitchen. The thing being left on the burner too long is me and, if I don’t get off the stove, I’m going to become a crispy critter.

Little did I realize how much our trip to this restaurant was going to open up my awareness to some realities that have been slowly penetrating my thick skull. Well, now that I’m becoming acquainted with the Asperger aspects of my being, the dots are finally connecting into a visible picture I’ve never been able to see before.

I’ve known for quite some time how important diet and relaxation is. I even mentioned in my post yesterday that some Asperger Syndrome people seem to slip through the burnout crack. Well, not getting any sleep sure isn’t going to help an Aspie avoid becoming fried and I did not sleep one wink last night. That’s okay because, I know with my knowledge of Aspergers (that began 1 year and 4 months ago), along with going back to my daily organic diet (that began 4 years and 4 months ago) and daily diet of scripture study (that began 28 years ago), I can¹ finally plug up this life-long epinephrine flow.

I’ll now mention some of the things that provoked my adrenal glands into kicking up my exhaustion level, which already began heading in the wrong direction since I’ve been spending less time meeting my spiritual and physical needs. The time I used to spend devoting myself to my relationship with my Heavenly Father (and wholesome eating) has managed to shift towards learning all I can about Aspergers (from books, the internet, conferences, videos, conversations, observations, etc.) and then sharing what I learn with others (online and offline).

While I was at this restaurant, I was conscious of the sensory input overloading my body. The way it was lit inside (no florescent lights, but rather tiny halogen bulbs here and there, along with typical miniature neon signs that restaurant/bars have, did not mix well with the dark interior and bright outdoor light coming in through the few windows) was irritating my nerves because my eyes were very uncomfortable. The smell of the food cooking was actually nauseating. The crowd of people (you probably wouldn’t call it a crowd) coming and going was impossible for me to ignore. The worst aspect of being there was the noise (obviously others there could tune it out) from all the chattering (no music was playing). I was so overwhelmed by the shock of being in an environment I’m not used to, that I made stupid decisions on top of everything else. I forgot that white wine makes me ill,² but was quickly reminded when I began to take some sips. I forgot that spicy food triggers hot outcomes. I also forgot that I actually have to drink wine with shrimp or else I have an allergic reaction to seafood.

After eating, I was reminded of my autistic superpower of being invisible (previously mentioned in What’s Recognized?):

“After eating, the waitress asked if we would like dessert. My husband requested a cheesecake, along with a cup of coffee. When the waitress looked at me, I told her I didn’t want anything other than just a cup of coffee. (My husband said I spoke politely and audibly clear enough to be heard.) She came back to our table with one cup of coffee and a slice of cheesecake. They both were placed in front of my husband. She didn’t even look at me.”

What a dessert being invisible is when added to all the other coarse ingredients of going out to eat!

Yes, it’s time for me to change my diet and value relaxation. I need to get back into the kind of routine I had before discovering Aspergers at the beginning of last year. Everyone needs wholesome food; both the spiritual kind and physical. I was doing good in those areas until this fascination with the missing piece of Aspergers to solve the puzzle of my life came along. I’m not complaining about Aspergers or about my learning. I love both. So now for me to combine the two other ingredients I’ve been neglecting — a good diet and quality time with God (relaxation = meditating on God’s word³) — will permit this eccentric to slip through the burnout crack and come out feeling good rather than burnt. Only God knows when that will happen, because He is the one working through me (Philippians 2:13). That’s good enough for me. All I need to know is that I’m going in the right direction. That’s why I can ignore how tired I feel right now.

¹Philippians 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.”

²When I was younger, I could endure self-destructive behavior. There was so much of it that I became hyposensitive towards it. Now I’m actually thankful to be hypersensitive. I need to be, so I can survive and protect myself.

³Isaiah 26:3, “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.”

Now that I’m getting to know more about what my fellow adult Asperger friends go through in life, along with what I glean through from researching what other Aspies endure, it’s very difficult for me to remain non-emotional about it. Maybe that’s good I get upset because it just might be what’s needed since the majority of people are not going to care. What makes it worse is that there are too many in this category who go beyond not caring and enter into the hate group. The hate group automatic hate a person as soon as they find out s/he is an Aspie. These hateful people are absolutely no different than the Ku Klux Klan, except instead of seeking white supremacy they’re aiming for neurotypical supremacy. I have heard comments from this group who go so far as to unashamedly say they’d love to shoot and kill Aspies. I could understand it if an Aspie was malicious, but their target is to eliminate the lives of ALL Aspies, as if they sincerely believe there is such a thing as NT supremacy!

This explains why I see adults with Aspergers splitting into different directions as they get older. Some learn to structure their lives so as to minimize their need for going out of their self-constructed environment. It’s these people who love devoting themselves to their interests. They are called the eccentrics more than any other Aspie group. I imagine the reason is because the truly eccentric people are not influenced by what other people think about them. These folks (as I’ve previously mentioned in The Jigsaw Picture Unseen) are happier, healthier, and live longer. Society generally leaves them alone because they keep to themselves. This is my goal actually. However, since I’m torn between wanting to help others who I know are suffering NOT because of Aspergers, but because of too much supported bigotry towards Aspies, I find myself unable to keep quiet knowing all that I do. For self-preservation, I’ve learned to not care what other people think about me. If people refuse to see I how much I care about others, then that’s their problem and their loss.

I obviously am no longer in the group of Aspies who try continuously to ‘fit’ in and be as ‘normal’ as they can. I’ve wasted half a century of my life investing energy to accomplish this impossible feat. I perceive that unpaid job I made a career out of as now being one which I am retired from, except I not only never received any paychecks for my efforts, I also have no pension fund with which to rely on. Instead of receiving anything back from this effort to conform, I paid an expensive price for such foolish behavior. Suzanne C. Lawton refers to this cost as The Asperger Middle-Age Burnout in her book Asperger Syndrome: Natural Steps toward a Better Life. Lawton shares on page 33 what Dr. Leslie Carter observed:

“She had noted this same behavior and attributed it to adrenal exhaustion from years of pumping out high levels of epinephrine from prolonged severe anxiety. Not only were these AS people dealing with their regular levels of anxiety¹, but they were also working extremely hard to maintain a façade of normalcy.”²

As Lawton points out, “Some AS people seemed to slip through this burnout crack. The common denominator was diet and relaxation.” How can any Aspie relax if, when s/he goes to a therapist on a regular basis over many years, is exposing her/himself to constant discouragement? The therapists mean well, but almost all are clueless over what way they are actually doing more harm than good to Aspies. All human beings need to feel good about who they are and no neurotypical psychologist is going to support an Aspie by trying to (futilely?) change society’s wrong attitude. Instead, they try to do the impossible by endlessly attempting to change the way a neuro-A-typical brain processes information. I wised up by the time I began sampling counselors, so I didn’t fall into that life-long trap. I can easily tell what Aspies are becoming mentally ill because of the mental health profession. I am not claiming that 100% of what the mental health industry does is pure destruction.

Unfortunately, the best source of information available for help with educating society in this regard is (for the most part) unavailable. Why? Because Aspies in therapy tend to wise up and learn to filter what they tell psychologists since they learn how what they say can end up being used against them. The smartest and wisest of all don’t even get involved with counseling because they’ve figured it all out already and know the outcome.³ Those who keep to themselves have learned how to protect their physical and mental health. They are the ones you’re NEVER going to hear about on television because no one can make any money off them.

¹This regular source of anxiety comes from having extraordinary levels of sensory input in a world full of people who are less sensitive physically.

²I emphasize the last part for those people, who have been in my past, to add that to their assumption of me being lazy. I’d also like them to know that I know they read my blog.

³These eccentrics are also in situations that enable them to survive financially without having to be forced into being someone who they are not.

The more people there are who get their needs met by the government (teachers in public schools, police, social service workers, recipients of welfare, disability, health care, etc.), the more those, who remain independent of all these ‘benefits’, will become vulnerable to being forced into complying.

We’re almost there! The only way to reverse the mess would be if these citizens got the wisdom, courage, and integrity to say, “This has gone too far. I quit and no longer want whatever the government has to offer.” Sadly though, those people want what they’re getting right now more than they care what it will cost everyone later. If that’s not bad enough, most of the younger generation are way too naïve for even beginning to see this pattern that’s been brewing for a long time.

Adding to this hopelessness is the fact that everyone in the entire world would have to comply towards making the same kind of changes at the same time. This principle is the same one behind why young people join gangs. Gang members are terrified to leave because they know they’re vulnerable alone.

God never promised us that we would solve this problem. He only warns us in the bible about its coming. It’s inevitable because too many people would rather be independent of God’s rule. They prefer trusting in their self (self-confidence¹) for being right (a ‘good’ person) and mankind to save the world rather than trusting Christ to save their soul from captivity to the covert ruler of this world (Satan).

¹If I come across as being self-confident, yes, I also am in a way. The difference is that within me, it is not me who ultimately rules. All of my soul (by the grace of God) is in the safest bank available. It’s covert manager is Christ abiding within (all Christians should be called ‘trinity-confident’ instead of ’self-confident’ because they trust in God, His Spirit to guide, and Christ’s righteousness). It’s impossible for me to separate from Christ because that’s what happens when two become one. If you think that’s an expensive investment, you have no idea what the costs are for the alternatives yet. How can anyone know such things? . . . by trusting in the only one who has never lied → our creator. No one knows the end of the story better than its author.

Tuesday 5-13-8

I haven’t thought long on this, so maybe I’m writing prematurely about it. If so, I’ll come back and edit this post. Anyhow, I have another example of what appears contradicting to me when reading Olga Bogdashina’s book Theory of Mind and the Triad of Perspectives on Autism and Asperger Syndrome.

On page 106 she says, “On the conceptual level, gestalt perception leads to rigidity of thinking and lack of generalization.” I understand and agree with her general concept about fragmented perception she is explaining. She also writes on that page, “When too much information needs to be processed simultaneously, very often people with autism are not able to break down the whole picture into meaningful units and so they process only those bits which happen to get their attention.” I’m glad she follows that statement by using VanDalen’s words, “It seems as though autistic people react to parts of the objects as being complete entities in themselves.”¹

I confess I displayed a poor ability to generalize things like plot summaries for book reports when I was in school. This is probably why there is a lot of confusion about this topic. It has to do with the concept of executive function. Tony Attwood’s definition of this in his book The Complete Guide to Asperger’s Syndrome from page 323 states a critical factor that’s ignored too much. It has to do with the time element:

“. . . think of a chief executive of a large company, who has the ability to perceive the ‘big picture’, can consider the potential outcomes of various decisions, is able to organize resources and knowledge, plan and prioritize within the required time frame, and modify decisions based on results.”

I’m sure if Einstein was placed under time deadlines for his theories, he would not have been able to satisfy those who were in a hurry. Yes, corporate executives can build huge companies and they do seem to do well financially . . . BUT who is going to disagree that their decisions to rush out products for profit are beginning to show signs of creating problems in the long run that are not good. I don’t enjoy adding this, but must → Most likely those people who can’t perceive this are unable to do so either because they are not spatial thinkers, don’t care enough to work at thinking this through, or both.

I’d like to speak for myself by saying I am (and always have been) fully aware of the fact that parts of objects are not complete entities in themselves (at least in the sense I’m gathering what she means). I’m now convinced (but did not confidently know this about myself before this year) I’m more aware of the whole picture (the gestalt perception) than most neurotypical people could image.² When a person sees the ‘package’ so exceptionally well, it appears to those who are less able at knowing how things ‘fit’ together that we autistics are viewing parts of objects as being complete entities in themselves.

When you add what Bogdashina writes about “autistics being concrete thinkers who need to understand associative and spatial thought patterns” on page 119:

“Being a spatial thinker means that a person represents things in the mind with a multidimensional model. This way of thinking brings both advantages and disadvantages. On the one hand, it is easier to see certain patterns of the world and infer things from those patterns. On the other hand, it is more difficult to do things that are more sequential (one-dimensional and in a line), especially when such a task involves picking a one-dimensional line out of multidimensional possibilities.³“

. . . she seems to be saying there is no lack of generalization after all. If there was a true inability to ’see the forest through the trees,’ then why the heck are autistic people (generally speaking) much better at discerning patterns and knowing what function parts perform in the whole scenario?

One last note, probably the most important factor missing in all this is integrity. When people are too full of self-centered priorities, they decide what they do because they don’t care about others since they feel protected from the consequences of their bad decisions due to the financial wealth they gain from them. As for ’social’ decisions in regards to this same concept, people feel protected if they are a member of a powerful gang, pack, organization, clique, government, cult, etc. It is the lone traveler, who doesn’t conform and is misunderstood, that needs to be confident and courageous. The Protestant reformer, Martin Luther, is a great example of a person without self-centered priorities, financial wealth, and who had to began alone in his quest to change what he could see was wrong about how the Catholic church was using the bible and people to get wealthy and powerful.

¹This ‘it seems as though statement’ is the aspie myth part of the post. I bring to attention as a reminder for all people to exercise caution when making assumptions.

²As I’ve already footnoted in my I’ve just got to do it! post, “I had no idea that when I applied for a job as a locksmith in 1980, I was doing anything exceptional by being able to take a lock apart and reassemble it. I was told, out of about 100 applicants, only one other person besides me could put the lock back together again.”

³This is why multiple choice tests are so irritating to most Asperger people.

Tuesday 5-13-8

It’s said that people with Aspergers lack gauging mechanisms to read non-verbal messages neurotypicals send out, but then so do NTs! Yes, I am saying NTs can’t tell when someone is beginning to get turned off by their rambling. Oh NTs don’t call it “rambling.” They call it polite social chatter — “small talk” to be exact. However, the fact remains that I can see that others are clueless to notice how boring I find small talk to be. What difference is it what you call chattering (gushing endlessly about a boring topic verses small talk about obvious crap like the weather)? The best way to illustrate this might be to mix the popular music young teens enjoy with the music that maybe some elderly people enjoy relaxing to (like those who enjoy the opera) at the same time, place, and volume level. What is one man’s music is another man’s noise pollution.

But . . . here’s the problem: There seems to be something wrong with the scenario of NTs being able to trigger an Aspie to feel ‘handicapped’ because of an incorrect read of a social situation.

When I recently heard about a story of a couple of young girls glancing at one another to “go” because an Aspie’s faux pas of gushing out unsolicited knowledge, my first impression was that it is the two young girls who are the ‘handicapped’ ones.¹

Why would I say such a thing? I say it because they had an opportunity to tap into a great mind with a wealth of information that could have enriched their young lives, but instead they became ‘handicapped’ because of their inability to get over the social standards that spoiled them. How did it spoil them? It caused the two young girls to misread their situation and misjudge the brilliant man before them. It was as if these girls lack an ability to read a great book that has opened wide to reveal its pages for them. Granted, the information may have gushed out like a water facet which had its handle ‘bumped’ open and caused a sudden flow . . . but come on! How hard can it be to find the handle and monitor the flow?

Yes, there are some Aspies who have handles for their mouth expressing their knowledge that seem to be broken, but how do you know how ‘broken’ it is if the way you handle such uncomfortable situations is by foolishly disengaging and walking away rather than co-steering the conversation by speaking up with what’s on your mind? Aspies who are willing to readjust their verbal flow with the help of kind and gentle guidance are NOT the ‘rude’ people. Rude people don’t care enough about others to help them. Instead they walk away because it’s the easier thing to do and society backs them up by brainwashing people into believing that giving no explanation as to why they’re walking away is something they have no need to feel ashamed about. That principle is NO different than when a person might walk into and out of a room of people he knows without saying “hello” or “goodbye” to any of them. To most Aspies, such things seem unimportant . . . but yet they usually do it anyhow because it’s what is expected of them. Fine, but what about Aspies who hope for some respect and warmth from the people they meet? That’s less important? I doubt it. It seems to be socially acceptable to humiliate an Aspie by remaining silent and walking away instead of using the social situation for the benefit of everyone involved.

Those young girls in this example do have a handle, but they’re too judgmental to use it. The trash in this situation has nothing to do with a ‘gush’ gauge. The real big bag of trash that cannot be eliminated in this world is people judging others by their unsound humanistically arrogant principles. So what someone gushes! Big deal! People need to get over their standards that spoil them so they can realize how simple the solutions are. It’s easy for someone to say in a kind manner that they’re uncomfortable with someone’s gushing and work out a balanced solution that’s fair for everyone involved, no?

¹Usually adult Aspies have learned how to manage engaging into a conversation, but once ‘in there,’ staying balanced gets more difficult the longer an Aspie has to peddle his words.

Monday 5-12-8

My husband suggested I have two different blogs rather than just this one. Poor guy. I know he means well, but apparently there still are things he cannot understand. I comprehend his logic, but honestly cannot see how to incorporate the purpose of two blogs. Why two blogs? Actually he would have suggested three, if he remembered that I also write about my Christian faith and many people today are offended by that too.

I was told my writing will not be taken seriously because I inject my moods into most of my posts. The solution supposedly is for me to have one blog presenting a respectable ‘professional’ image and another blog for things that would otherwise be kept ‘bottled up’ with the lid on tight, especially for my emotions. For example, I’m well aware that my sense of humor is unlike the norm. I wouldn’t be surprised if nobody shares my sense of humor (generally speaking). In fact, how can anyone share emotions with others if the necessary common denominators¹ simply don’t exist?

Asperger Syndrome people are human and most Aspies are not mentally ill. Many people misjudge others whom they cannot understand. I know because I’m always being misjudged. It’s normal for me and that’s why I’m sure my blog is probably misjudged too. Creating another blog isn’t going to help with that problem. Maybe two or more blogs would be beneficial to most people with multiple agendas, but for me to blog in a Dissociative Identity Disorderly manner (previously known as multiple personality disorder) is not going to be beneficial for either my readers or myself.

I know people behave differently at their job and can change their persona when off work as easily as one can change his shoes. It would make sense then that these same people would have no problem with maintaining different types of blogs either. This is why it seems like a good idea to remind people that Aspies like me don’t function the same way they do. Maybe I can separate posts somewhat and make a lame attempt at categorizing them, but to actually place them into a different blog? That would be like me forcing everyone to behave (and dress) the same way wherever they are and whoever they’re with — everyone would have to be consistent with the image they present.

This is why Aspies are derogatorily complained about for insisting on making their own rules for what they do. Neurotypical people NEED instruction manuals for knowing how to have functional relationships with Aspies just as much as Aspies NEED instruction manuals for co-existing with them. However, imagine being forced to live in a foreign country that will not tolerate, let alone want to understand why, your ways don’t match theirs. Or how about a wild animal captured and taken away from its natural habitat and being locked into a zoo created by creatures who have no clue how this wild animal thinks and/or feels?

¹By common denominators, I don’t mean people with Aspergers lack such things as empathy and/or humor. All human beings have the ability to experience the same basic functions. The difference though with neurotypical people is that they use their humanness not only in ways different from neuro-A-typicals, but also they do so for peculiar reasons. An example of a common denominator would be two Italians visiting in America for the first time — those Italians are human beings just like Americans are, but they don’t share the same background experiences of Americans and these Italians also carry slightly different genetic components than most Americans (like different dog breeds do, especially when comparing purebreds against mixed breeds).

Monday 5-12-8

An elusive thought of the night keeps coming into my dreams as a post I’m writing, but when I wake up and look at my blog, obviously it refuses to leave my mind for travel elsewhere. It’s odd that this same topic keeps recurring, along with its identical feeling. I think it’s important while I’m sleeping, so much so that I believe I will have no problem to recall the thought once I’m awake. All I can say is that it has something to do with Asperger’s syndrome and the way that Aspies perceive things differently than neurotypicals do.

I refuse to write about anything else until I figure out what blog comments have to do with my strange dream that seems to want revelations forthcoming. Maybe none will ever surface? Oh well . . . so be it as it’s May.

May is reality awareness month.¹ That means people should be offline as much as humanly possible this month. If you believe this, then you must be ready for the next con around the corner.

¹This is the excuse everyone has been looking for! Who in their orbital mind wouldn’t love having eleven months of each year to escape reality? No one really wants a ‘reality’ check month, do they?

~ Spring at the creek,

. . . but autumn is brighter and more colorful! ~

What I simply cannot understand, nor ever will, is why people don’t communicate messages the way they should be expressed. Children are told things straightforward, so why not do the same with all people?

Usually Asperger people are up front, but now I see that they too can trash this blessed quality. When I invite a person to visit for becoming acquainted, I get the impression she’d love to stop over. She does seem to act grateful for the friendly¹ gesture, but is that any reliable indicator? Apparently not quite so, nor ever can it be for Aspies like me.

It’s evident most people are too busy to visit. That’s fine. However, it is completely illogical for people, who are too busy to accommodate newcomers into their lives, to NOT mention that they are too busy to increase their social circle. There is nothing offensive about telling someone, who is extending an invitation, that her social life is too full for adding another person into it.

I get blamed for being rude because I don’t see that the invited guest has no intentions of visiting. I’m not rude anymore, because I now learned how to adapt into this world full of unreasonable² people.

My question is, “What are people like me supposed to do then? Believe what people say or not believe what people say?” I ask this question not to get an answer, but rather to get people to think about their inconsistencies between what they say verses what they do.

I know most people would love to tell me that my problem is I shouldn’t take what others say literally. I will always stand by my conviction that idle³ talk is wrong. Words reflect a person’s reputation. What someone says is a reflection of who they are. If they value what’s popular and acceptable by society more than what’s right and acceptable by God, then that person’s integrity is questionable.

“But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.” — Matthew 12:36

If what I’m saying in this post angers you, then that indicates insufficient thought is at your end. When others don’t care enough to speak candidly, then they are possibly robbing an Aspie of her time. I have always tried to make an effort to be understood correctly by others. If that can’t be appreciated, then I must have some screws loose if I keep investing of myself into those who display no evidence of wanting to meet me half-way.

I might sound angry, but I’m really not. I’m just expressing something shameful. That’s all. Maybe by some miracle, my sharing this bit of information might actually be useful to someone. Truthful words, spoken by the motive of love for other Aspies, do not make idle talk. If my message is useless, it’s only because its words have fallen on deaf ears.

We will all eventually be accountable for what we say or don’t say. We are not responsible for what others do with the words we speak. Nor are people (most Aspies for example) responsible for what others don’t say, especially if they’re unable to ‘receive’ a message that remains concealed to them.

¹I’ve read that friendliness is often mistaken for friendship by Asperger people. Now I understand why. What protects me from making this mistake anymore is knowing the difference between what most people label as friendliness verses what I call friendliness. My definition of it is no where near as liberal and/or quickly dispensed upon a person. It must be that way for me, because I cannot be friendly towards someone I cannot sincerely respect. Jesus behaved the same way. He never was friendly towards pretentious people.

²Inconsistent with reason or logic or good sense.

³Idle: vain; fruitless; lacking substance or worth; futile; barren; useless.

Why does it seem that the things which should be obvious are often times also the most difficult to see? This isn’t just for Aspergers people, but also neurotypicals. Knowing more now about how differently the mind of one on the autism spectrum thinks verses how the NT mind processes information has me also knowing that there is no way for NTs to reach this conclusion. I am not saying this to boast. I’m saying it because if I don’t, people on the other side of human neurodiversity will remain ignorant. There is a reason God designed the Asperger mind to be highly analytical, logical, and deep thinking. Some people appreciate this, but most people actually hate it.

It’s only logical to conclude from my need for books written by NTs who try to understand AS people (in order to understand how the typical world is perceiving people like me) that the reverse must also be true. NTs need books written by Aspies¹ so they can understand people who think differently from what they’re accustomed to, but NTs don’t want them written. You’ll find books which reflect the experiences, thoughts, and feelings Aspies have. That’s acceptable so long as an Aspie doesn’t start to sound like a professional who is informing the world on how NTs should act in ways that are ‘normal’ for Aspergians. There is a reason there is no market demand for such books.

It’s ironic that in my quest to better understand what’s going on with this whole neurodiversity issue, I should find statements made by a NT professional who writes about her observations of Aspies to be so blind to her own theory. Add to that, the title of the book focuses on the theory of the mind. All theories are assumptions, even the ones this author comes up with.

This psychologist stated that a lot of Aspies have the mentality of ‘us against them.’ She also stated that the very things Aspies complain about NTs (probably like what I’m saying here), are the same things they cannot perceive in their own selves. If I could have a sit down talk with that author, we would probably remain in an endless debate because I know I would not be listened to. Instead, I would be dictated how to think and it would have to agree with her point of view. This is not fair.

I do not, nor would I ever, insist that neurotypical people think and perceive things like I do. First of all, I know they can’t because of their brain structure being different than mine. I respect neurodiversity, but I also know it would be argued that I don’t because I’m constantly pointing out differences instead of complying nicely like typical people wish I would. The more insistent I am upon protecting my self identity from being stolen, the more I’m perceived as being a hypocrite.

It’s beginning to appear that Aspies need to be reminded: “You [Aspies] have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of social correctness run by NT authorities. You have the right to have an NT attorney (who loves, understands, and unconditionally accepts you) present during questioning. If you cannot find such a valuable attorney, one should be appointed for you.”

My suspicions about many other things are also starting to get confirmed by much of what I observe and read. Those Aspies who sincerely make attempts to be someone they are not, eventually pay a high price for their desperate attempts to conform. From the perspective of the NT world, typical people think Aspies are ‘cured’ if they act normal. That’s all most people want — an act. The truth is less important today than appearances.

Aspies who remain reclusive (they’re usually the smartest ones) are happier and healthier.² I was happier before I began trying to teach what I know about neurodiversity in my blog online. If and/or when people get disturbed by reading what I write, they should realize there are two groups of people here who are being pulled out of their comfort zone.

If I was really being selfish, I would never have bothered to share what I have. I’m not gaining anything for myself by doing so. It should be obvious that I don’t seek kudos for what I write. I care about the whole human race and see what’s important. It’s important that people put aside their pride so they can stop with the nonsense of feeling so offended all the time. So much personal insult stems from simply being spoiled.

When people like me will not be listened to but rather be talked at (which is the very thing I’m accused of doing), then there is no point in trying to solve this puzzle. What it means then is that the picture isn’t pretty and those, who continuously twist the things we Aspies do and say, do not really want the pieces of truth snapped together. What most typical people truly want is everyone to behave ‘normal’ and for no one to be uncomfortably ‘weird.’

¹I have no desire to ever write such a book.

²If you like what’s in these two links, then you might also like the similar third one, Eccentrics Live Longer, kept aside in my category for Healthy Living listed to the right of my posts.  When David Weeks did his research, he wasn’t even aware of Asperger Syndrome’s existence.